Stronger Than That

I should have seen that coming

but somehow I let my glasses get fogged

with a fuzzy full-of-supposed-dreams cloth.

Everyone else says they watched it happen,

popcorn in hand,as the play by play is painted

by that fake smiling reporter

who thinks she knows my story.Put through filter coming out

full of maybes and I thinks.

Doubt has an iron first

and it holds me lover tight.  

Yeah, yeah, you told me so.

And I say so what?

Can you help me out?

Because I've disappeared again

and can't seem to push

this big brick wall off me.

My toes are sticking out

while my legs are getting crushed

by the eyes of the cluckers.

Everyone thinks they know.

Maybe they do.  

Or maybe, there is more that I know.

My education is through the places

people are afraid to go,in any lifetime.

I've lived there, breathed it in,wrapped myself in the concrete

and bonded with those and mine.

I clawed up and out,

dirtying my fingers and cleaning my mind

while other waited with fear

and loosening the grip with fire and fumes.

It's possible, it always is.  

Everyone loves a hero and

I am my own. 

Tainted brings pretty colors

to my clothes and

I am still beautiful

without standing in the rain.

I don't need anything

to wash it away anymore;

I finally know

I'm stronger than that.